Poetry: 2 Poems by Crystal Johns

But Still I Stand

by Crystal Johns

After, but still I stand.

Before, but still I stand.

When time has stopped, where will I be?
But when shall I fall, either after or before?

I'm strong within my heart, but weak inside my soul.

What happened to me?

Was that just a stupid dream?

Something planned extremely well?

But still I stand, I'm a mountain, one tall as can be.

How can you know when I'm weak or even when I'm really strong?

As the petals from up above come tumbling down,

I cry--but with a joyful smile.

With much hurt and pain in my heart,

I still stand strong with a brilliant and talented start,

But STILL I stand,

The colors behind the huge, black wall lies:

Yellow, blue, red, green, black, and sometimes white.

With all this

But still I stand.

Sadness

by Crystal Johns

Sadness lives within me, the insane passion grows internally in my flesh.

Sadness wounds my soul and pierces my heart.

Sadness walks slowly over me as my guide.
It follows me left and right.

X marks the spot that sadness ripped apart.

Proudly and boldly, I stand with a higher power,
What is known as happiness.
It stands strongly in front of me,

Guiding me through tough struggles.

My sadness always stands behind me.

I cry--lonely--to an invisible shadow,
Speaking unspoken words, crying unseen tears, yelling,

But still no one hears

ME.

Sadness shall never,

Will never take over or control me.

Happiness shall always succeed.

Sadness is slowly killing me.